How exactly do you describe what happens to you when one person makes your world a different place? When one person changes the way you see everything?  When one person makes all of your reality sing, shine, fly?

Just as I had started to settle into my surrender to the fact that I was destined not to be in love, just as I had decided it was not my fate to draw to me the kind of love that my heart yearned for, just as I'd given up on a love of any kind, not to mention a "BIG LOVE," there was Cather.

Here is a man whose life has not been one that most could endure and end up so sweet, so strong, so bright and fun and darling, and yet here he stands, real and amazing and breathtakingly beautiful.  There is nothing so stunning in all of creation as a truly beautiful person... not a perfect, plastic, shell of a soul, but the Real Deal; someone like Cather.

In some ways of figuring, I guess I don't have all that much to offer in return, but to a man such as this, who seems to be able to pick through the clutter and, against all odds, find what is good and whole and endearing within me, I stand here being able, for the first time in perhaps my whole life, to feel the Goddess within.  He feeds Her, nurtures Her, makes me believe in Her; not by any flowery declarations or glib promises, but with a constant presence and a growing sense of Home, he makes me whole, and makes me know the wonder of being one with Her and the Universe.

So how do I describe it?  Like a child being born, like a full soul passing to The Next, like the sleeper coming awake, like blind finding sight.  Like discovering that Love is not an illusion; it is Law.

I love you, Cat, as I never imagined possible; as I never expected to deserve; as I never believed me capable.  With me there will never be, for you, any more betrayal... nor disrespect... nor neglect... nor denial... nor abandonment.  I am yours, surely as I was made for you, because in being so, I lose nothing of myself, but merely gain the wonder of you,

Thank you a thousand fold, and a thousand more.  Thank you for causing my children to look at me with that light that says they know, as only children can, that their mother is, at long last, happy and home.  Thank you for giving me back my life, that which I had set aside for so long.  Thank you for opening your angel heart to me, and giving me wings, again.  As long as it is within my power, you will never thirst.

Namaste, my love... you are my light, my life, my God, my power.  The divine in me calls out to that in you, and because we are together, my Universe is unfolding as it should.

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